The foot prints

I saw I walked looked behind all washed away to the day..

The dawn seems to look behind all is fading behind the smoke

Murky cloud you come you go but I m still standing right here

All in my intellectual thought are drowned

The tide has washed the dreams

The footprint all which was Left

Is sweped by the wave leaving a note behind here was my Dream

Here was my dream

                 May be I do miss you…

Hmm One of my friends said my eyes do say it all

I wonder why?

He once said that even when I talk the search is there for some one I wonder why knew ways got over the melodrama..

Met one of my X and felt there was nothing left between us a person I soo looked forward to meet was there with me

But,I guess I fell out of love .

WE spoke I was not even interested to talk and may be tere was a point I wondered if this meeting was worth it.

But when we parted it really did not mater if we ever met cause e was just another stranger living next to my Block

Some goodbyes are for good and I ave learnt it 

You can look, but you can't touch
I don't think I like you much
Heaven knows what a girl can do
Heaven knows what you've got to prove 
Did they ever give you a reason
To believe in something different
If you’re looking for love, for what’s worth
I have plenty of it lying around here somewhere
If you are looking for disappointment
You can find it around any corner
In the middle of the night I hold on to you tight
So both of us can feel protected 

After all this time to chanalise the mind to useful things in life...

the hopeful verse by Mahatma Ghandi, "There are no goodbyes for us. Wherever you are, you will always be in my heart. Ghandi"

Is that me?

Sometimes a person behaves in a very different way that he or she surprises himself or herself. A sudden incidents in your life some times reveal many things which we are not even aware of about ourselves earlier and then we used to ask “Is that me”, have I done this or Can I behave in such a manner or reacted like this When we later try to analyze all the things then many of our hidden potential, strengths, our feelings and weakness may come in front of us.

Well as for me am very impulsive by nature but, all the steps which I take I believe that I should not have the regret that I did not give a shot or to live with a regret that what if I had done it?

I still remember the time when I was learning to bicycle and there was an elevated pavement made in the park of my colony in Delhi I was in class IX. I use to look at the boys who would cycle and do wheele stunts and there was this tinge in me what if I could also do it! So one fine day along with my younger brother (I must admit he thought it was dumb act but I coaxed him into supporting me to perform this stunt) went in the park to the territory which was ruled by boys (as no girl was allowed to do so).I started my few initial steps I managed to paddle few inches and just when I thought that I had reached to a point where I could brag about it  and had a huge grin  as the saying goes all good things must come to an end. Suddenly I loose my balance as I fall on the pebbles scratching my face what followed was a week of bed rest , liquid diets mothers homemade packs to prevent the scratches etc. Till date all my family members have a hearty laugh of this incident but at the same time they smile thinking I was the only girl who could go across the enemy lines (well that what it ment for girl gang)

I always felt that it was very easy to go on stage and speak out ones mind or thoughts,but I still remember the time I had participated in debate competition I was well versed with the lines and with one indication would end up narrating the lines in the order they were scripted for me .So, on the d day  felt I was all geared up to face the music but when the time came I was a nervous wreck .  I was glued to my place then my teacher walked up to me and said that in life no one gets second shot so she asked me to go and give my best. I was so relived I went and gave the performance with ease .After that incident no mater how big the crowd I was I was always confident that I gave my best shot and rest it was my fate of what  came my way.

Traveling in buses that too in Delhi is like maneuvering through the crowd and still manage to be glued to the same spot despite of all the bumps and jerk one might have. I still clearly remember the day when I was entering from one  of the skit practices from my friends place I took the bus heading towards Saket one of my favorite hangout places as it was more pocket friendly .I saw a little  girl  she must be  in class 6 – 7 sitting by the window .She had a spark of curiosity in her eyes .Her big brown eyes were glued to the road.Suddendly there was a middle aged person who came out of the blue and although the bus was not so crowded he came and sat next to the girl. He had a negative presence about him .The little girl was not comfortable and she had the pleading look of  wishing he would go to other place the man realizing that she is all by herself tried o take advantage of the situation and kept on pushing her towards the window. Finally when that girl was on brink of crying and no body reciprocated to her silent request. I got up from my place pushed the man and gave him a good piece of my mind. Took that girl offered her water and asked her to make herself comfortable. She had the sleepish grin on her face and she thanked me. I could only reply back to her saying as we parted our ways since my stop had come “stand up for yourself”. She waved to me from the window seat I waved back wondering how many women have to bear this everyway...

I remember when my brother was n class II nd and we were in same school there was his classmate who would tease him .One fine day when my brother complained  I went to the teachers staff  room ,opened the boys records and went to that boy. I showed him his address and asked him to not bother my brother again or else he will face the consequence of being scolded by his father. From that day on till the time my brother was doing his schooling he never bothered my brother.

I am known to be a prankster among my cousins. I still remember the day my cousin was getting married we were given strict instructions not to trouble the bride and since we were young w e found it very amusing that why should our cousin deck up in order to get married .Some of us in our group gave the judgment that she had to look pretty and to do so she had to apply make up. We were asked not to enter her room what was suggested that since the bride is scared of frogs we would gift her one. So I caught it and wrapped it in an Archie’s packing paper. My sister walked into the trap and she opened the bag .She screamed as  she never thought that this would happen to her .Since every one came rushing we ran away in order to not be beaten up. She gave an excuse that she was getting emotional missing every one at home .Its been more than 8 years to that incident but till date my sister has that fiery expression and a smile which says it all.

I think the major changes came in my behaviour after class XII when I was separated from my family and put to a boarding .This made me realize what it was to be independent ,learn to share ,work together last but not the least hostel food. I remember there was a bully in our hostel I use to detest her. She believed in the concept of ragging. I never liked her but during our camp days we were made to stay in groups .she had fallen sick .Since all my roommates had not come I had to take care of her. Later when she was well she told me the reason she was so rude o people because she never had a mother and she missed her father who was in Mumbai .He would come only on her birthday .Later on I and this girl became best of friends .After that episode I realized all of us have our own short comings and may be a person is not bad its only our perception which makes them so.

There are times when I take a step and look back and think is that me?  Or I actually had to do it?

Hmm Sunday

 Unlike most of my days I made a conscious effort to be idle on a Sunday but no some or the other thing had 2 come up

 Some here is not so vivid description about my Sunday
8.00 am: cell rings seems dad is on the other end y?

 Seems he wants to talk to his daughter whom he feels in in her own world.After mind u 5 min of one sided conversation the line gets cut and…I don bother 2 call back? I mean when u sleep late in the nigt not evry one is a morning person.. rt J
 that was all the excuse I could muster .The problem with having over qualified parents is that they want u 2 surpass them but for me the motto has b come don.. Worry b happy I mean for a young age taking too much is too tough rt. So I again dose off. Hoping that I dream again hmm now days all I see in my  dreams is sea beach hmm may b should have had gone 2 goa 4r new yrs any ways what’s the point of cribbing.

8.50 am : again some how it always happen wen u ave office peoplre don wake u up

  I don knw y my roomie hhad a panic attack n she yells at me go 2 ur office my    conclusion a. She is nut’s ( I m still sttickin 2 it)

                               b. She is still a nUt.

Tere are some people u so badly want 2 choke at times u cant as their  human  value is less and hmm they have a thick neckJ So,for the last time universal truth IT’S A SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!!

         10.00 am : again a call seems my roomie has again has forgotten to pay newspaper walas bill hmm so again hole in the pocket.Geting up early in the morning against ur will is like havin a hangover where the ceilng also seems to move

Hmm te news papers wala was more interested in telling his tale about how he had to manage wit no payments and rest I lost track as all I could think at back of my head was how his double chin was moving like that of a turkey… hmmm Back into the room this time my roomies cell rings and her estranged bf calls and as usual baby lets give it a try n blah blah seems his sppech worked as she was ready in 25 mins which I feel was a record considering the fact she loves us to make us wait and miss the trailers of asny movie…

11.00 am:  PEACE At last but as all good things come to an end … I feel so did my sleep hmm.My landlord found Sunday 2 be the auspicious day to get some repair done so  I was again woken with the knocking I was wondering may be canon balls also sound the same… I promise I will survive this as it was same as having a loudspeaker in north India at time of voting or pooja !hmm guess thats y we all are use to it.

12.00         Goodmorning Goodafternoon what the… nie ways decieded 2 ae coffee but No milk I don know despite of two people having no kitten where its gone so …. There I go again contemplating on pros and cons  I decide to but some ration so headed 2 the bakery this was not all . delima begins when I am thinkng of picking up my fav burger or sandwhich ….

                 Vote goes to sandwhich as lunch would be there in an hour or so… just wen u think u will not run intosome one on a bad hair day my gym instructor came in the same bakery 

                  He looks at my big buy and says no wonder u have no time 2 come to gym as ur busie eating hmm so much 4r a compliment by the time I come back I realise that my hunger has died and I am still making coffee.being Sunday a laundry day  hmm so I go on with my laundry….

                 Picked my fav book fountain head and a piece of paper feel it was soo kidish of few friends to actually write about the kind of guy criteria they wanted … 

                 The irony is that they almost have those guys but still… Not happy more like in pursuit of happieness..

10.00        Comes the acum moment where u tink sleep / drink /sleep/tv/ friends/ vella /books/u (Thts bad introspection time)/ shopping (even worse getin bankrupted)/calling mom hmmm na later/ … nuthin before I could decide hae 3 missed calls..

                   Cousin from uk called seems his accent is getting no beeter my younger bro did not know how t thank him for ps2 as he had it but at the same time had happy feet to play with and he wanted more violent games…

3.0                    I don’t knw how time passed today I decided to be a couch potato

Watched 3 movies wth friends by end of it I was soo tired of jus watchin but all 3 were good  hmm will jus add them incase if any one wants to watch them ..

My vote goes to Gone with the wind !!!!!!( I know should have watched it before )

Followed by I am legend and Roman holiday…

'Gone with the Wind' is one of the greatest American classics ever made. It tells the story of Scarlett O'Hara, played the very beautiful Vivien Leigh. She is one of the most selfish heroines you will ever see in a movie and still care for her. She is in love with Ashley Wilkes (Leslie Howard) but he marries to Melanie Hamilton. She is played by Olivia de Havilland in a great performance. A new man in Scarlett's life is Rhett Butler (Clark Gable) but Scarlett does everything to get what she wants including marrying someone for money and her own benefit. Rhett loves Scarlett with all his heart, mainly because they are much the same. They both think the world is there for them. Melanie and Scarlett become friends.

The movie is set in the time of the Civil War. What happens exactly with Scarlett, Rhett, Ashley and Melanie is for you to see but the war is pretty important for the story and the way it is used is great. The story itself is great anyway. Although the movie is long it is never boring. A reason for that is the performances. I already mentioned Olivia de Havilland, Clark Gable is very good, charming and sometimes funny, Hattie McDaniel as the black made is outstanding but I have to say that the best thing in this movie is Vivien Leigh. To make you care for a character like that is a pretty hard thing to do, but she makes it seem so easy. It is one of the strongest performances I have seen.

Besides the story and the acting we have the music, the sets, the costumes, the cinematography and of course the direction. It is all great. It was made in 1939 and over 60 years later it still is a very impressive movie

I LIKED Roman Holiday because of Gregory Peck , Audrey Hepburn although the plot is ok but acting is superb

Princess Anne embarks on a highly publicized tour of Europian capitals. When she and her royal entourage arrive in Rome, she begins to rebel against her restricted, regimented schedule. One night Anne sneaks out of her room, hops into the back of a delivery truck and escapes her luxurious confinement. However, a sedative she was forced to take earlier starts to take effect, and the princess is soon fast asleep on a public bench. She is found by Joe Bradley, an American newspaper reporter stationed in Rome. He takes her back to his apartment. The next morning Joe dashes off to cover the Princess Anne press conference, unaware that she is sleeping on his couch! Once he realizes his good fortune, Joe promises his editor an exclusive interview with the princess.
I am legend >>>>made no sense to me as  I still cannot figure out y do the Americans have all the problems as alien  ,virus attack, and volla they have resources to fight that also .. Watched it with bro more than the aeliens he was scarin me J

  It is the year 2012. In the ruins of New York city. Robert Neville who is a military scientist who is the lone survivor of a biochemical disease which was supposed to cure cancer 3 years previous. With only blood thirsty zombies as his neighbors and his trusty dog, Samantha, Robert is trying to discover a cure for this disease and to find out any other people who might have also survived

 its 8.00 I remembered that I had to update my resume went to the internet parlour eneded up doing al things except work

So now went back home the net speed was all gone for a toss couple of my friends made resolution to losses weight god know how many times hmm I also gave my consent but, mm never been too active 

10.00 headed back home to find flooor all squaterred with shopers stop bag seems my roomies wanted to get over some depression of hers and had to again shop.

I reaslised why I was soo irrirtated hmmm FOOD!

Had fixd myself dinner

By 12.00 was reading …

Deciding way back 2 daftar

N when I dosed off.

It was nearly 7.15 when I woke up everyday I make resolution to start my day erly finally woke up at 8.00 and headed to my work ,as usual lefet the things to do list back home

Hhavent got tickets booked for the marriage I have to attend and last but not the least ave still not called mom!
So now I have series of stuff around to do.

PS. Its good to be occupied till the extend u don loose out on ur life! What say..

   Cheers Not in a drunk sort of way 

N will try sleeping more have to finally come face to face with the mysterios face …. Ok enough for now chow

Hmm as for now I plan to start driving well

Start reading more

Invest time well

And just be the person I use to be

And try not to goof up with cash any more AHMEN!

And have a news from my boss that the work I ws giving my time to might be handed to someone else hmm still thinking how 2 react !

Im always thankful for people who stay even if I show them the real me, coz I cant be someone others pressume or expect me to be... it's nice to know you remain while I can just be me..

Saying I love you doesn't only mean loving someone coz you like someone, but for friends, it's the way to show concern and how much you care, so let me send this message saying I'm here for you coz i love you.

It's unfair to think so much of you when you're not missing me at all. To cry when you never shed a tear. To love you when you say words that hurt my heart... and to live when you breathe for someone else.

I loved someone before, I took the risk in loving him even if I dont know what will happen... One day I decided to give up.

God won’t leave us empty. If something's been taken away, He replaces it with something better. He asks us to put something down so we can pick up something greater. The success of a relationship lies not only in the beauty of its beginning but in it's consistency.

Life does not end where our heartaches begin. There is no future in relationships of lies and selfishness.

We all fall and make wrong decisions but our blinders are meant not to bury us deep in misery but to teach us the valued lesson of life.

The quickest way to receive love is to give the fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly and the best way to keep love is to give it wings.